In The Clear And Moving On

Well, it’s been a pretty much nonexistent last few weeks on the TTC front, just waiting for AF to arrive again.

Which she did today. So that’s good, because it means the miscarriage is really over and cleared out, and we can move on now. We’re sitting out this cycle while I wait to get my tax refund, and to allow my body to hopefully reset itself. But I sent an email to the Greek clinic today, because the hope is that we will get to go back in March. I asked for another Lupron prescription, so that if I need to order more I can get a head start on it and hopefully not have to pay the $100 for expedited shipping.  And I don’t think I’ll need any more scans or bloodwork until my March cycle starts… but I guess we’ll see.

If a March cycle worked (AF would be due around 3/2, putting our transfer date at approximately 3/16) then the baby’s due date would be around December 7^th – just a few days shy of Kaitlin’s birthday. Funny how, when we started this whole thing, I was really concerned with even skipping cycles to make sure that our baby didn’t have a December birthday, and now that doesn’t seem important anymore… the only thing that’s important now is actually getting pregnant and being able to keep that pregnancy all the way through to a baby.

Anyway,  it’s looking like I’ll be getting about $5700 back in tax refunds this year, thanks to all the out of pocket medical expenses from last year. The Greek clinic’s going to charge 4800 Euro for a second try, which right now is about equivalent to $5433 USD – the dollar is on a strong curve right now and I’m really hoping that holds for the next two months. Between my tax refund, the airline miles I have on the AMEX card I got for the last trip, and hopefully being able to save a little more from last month’s paycheck and February’s,  I should be able to pull this off.

It remains to be seen whether Kaitlin will be able to afford a plane ticket, or even be able to get the time off of work to come. In the last week she’s had several promising job opportunities come up – she’s now set up to do substitute teaching, and she’s actually out subbing today. She also just got hired at a local community college to teach some classes – those don’t start until August, though. And she has a second interview at Apple where she’s hoping to get hired on full time as a support tech.  Here’s hoping that all this means that she won’t be unemployed for much longer…

In the meantime, I finally managed to work through all that post-miscarriage depression by developing some uber-crafty projects to promote my upcoming book release. Having a new creative craft to focus attention on, something I can get excited about, has been just the thing I needed to feel like there’s a reason to get up in the morning again. I bought a little button/badge maker machine that I’ve been eyeing for a year,  and started working on making little plush dolls for my book characters and a ton of mini-books with my book covers on them, which make the cutest little charms for jewelry, zipper pulls, bookmarks and so on. Also got back into the 3D rendering stuff and creating character images for my website.

Keeping myself absorbed in crafty stuff is helping, though I still feel a little queasy when I’m walking past the baby sections in Walmart, and I’m still having a really hard time being around all of the babies and young parents at work. One step at a time, though, I guess. And at least, with AF showing up today, it’s starting to feel like we’re moving toward something again.

Only other update is kind of an annoyance –  the ER finally sent me the bill for that trip we made out there when the bleeding started. You know, the one where they put in an unnecessary IV and spent an hour doing an ultrasound and did some blood and urine work, then sent me home with a “not much we can do” letter. .. anyway, they sent the bill for THREE THOUSAND DOLLARS. I just about had a heart attack, and  the next day at work I got in contact with our insurance assistant-y person and faxed her a copy of the bill, praying that it was wrong. She looked into it for me, and sure enough – I only owe my $150 ER copay, NOT that ridiculous bill. Apparently the provider tried to tell Aetna that they had done some sort of experimental procedure??? And Aetna informed them they couldn’t bill me for it, so they have to send me a corrected bill for my copay instead. I don’t know if that means Aetna will pay for the procedure  themselves, but I’m more curious to know what POSSIBLE “experimental” procedure they could have done with an ultrasound, blood test, and urine test?? How bizarre.

When the lady emailed me back to say she’d gotten the bill sorted out I could have just kissed her. That bill might have meant the difference between being able to try again or not this year.

So now we play the waiting game for the rest of this month, and I try to eat right and exercise and keep up with my vitamins and all that other good stuff until it’s time for doctor appointments and injections and all of that again… oh boy!